Finding Strength...

This quote has been on my mind over the last few days...

See my little man has been sick this week, very high temperature and not sleeping. I have had to cuddle him practically all night, with short snippets of sleep.. (once he is quiet i can settle onto the couch and relax, but when i try to move him or put him down he wakes up and cry's)... and because I knew he was sick and couldn't help it there was a calmness that came over me, along with this quote which kept repeating in my head.

It made me happy & reassured to know that when I needed it most, and because I couldn't normally do it on my own I was given the strength and comfort i needed to help my baby boy.

See to back up a little.. usually if a day comes around when i cant get carter to sleep during the day, I really struggle with it because i am usually tired, in need of a break and i really want my daily nap.. :-).. I don't deal with it so well & usually poor Ryan receives a stressed out message from me, cause for some reason it helps to vent my frustration. 

So yesterday afternoon which was after the 3rd night in a row of no sleeping, I was thinking to myself.. WOW I am really dealing with this Surprisingly well. 

However last night after getting up for the 3rd time by 2am I pretty much hit a wall!!!  

I knew Carter was on the mend as his temp had come down. I was so tired and sore and just wanted to sleep so bad... I had tried to put off waking Ryan, because he had to work and he already does so much, i didn't want to wake him if i could deal with it... 

I came back to bed at 2.30am after finally settling Carter into his bed and as I laid down I felt a gentle hand on my back and a quite voice, "are you ok?" ... No i said, ... My hubby simply said "let me take the next one, you get some rest" 

I was so grateful for his understanding and gentleness.  

I was so tired.

I heard Carter wake up not long later, Ryan quickly got up and attended to him. All went silent and I fell off into sleep mode.. it felt soo good.

luckily for Ryan, he only had to give carter a bottle and there is a calmness about his nature that seems to settle Carter quickly when I cant (we each have our times i guess)... After that we all slept through until 6.30/7 which was GREAT considering that last few days. 

We were also blessed to have a lovely friend drop over a meal for us which was an added bonus and a huge help too. 

Its been a long week, but also an enlightening one which for me is a good thing.. I need to try focus on seeing the positives in each day a lot more.

Today I'm so grateful for my beautiful baby boy and my wonderful Husband.

Hoping for a full nights sleep tonight... 

Good Night all!

 xo